thorn-apart

a heartbeat in the night. so empty, yet so full of life. look around you, are you really alone? the sky...the stars, the clouds, the moon, the darkness... suddenly not such a depressing sight? listen to the soothing wind, all the subtle sounds of night. so empty, yet so full of life. you\'re not alone, all these things... it\'s me. i\'m w/ you always. all around.

She walked alone, through the dead of night, thinking about her life. thinking of all she\'d done wrong, and all that had been done to her, in return. she gave the world, what she knew was her best, yet never was it good enough. / She loved and she hated, just like the others, but it seemed that the love, was somehow always lost. (turned into lust, and then forever gone.) the hate she felt, so deep inside, just sat and grew, throughout her life. and she wondered why. / She was finally at the place, where she could at least begin to feel safe. she was on the rocks, w/ the waves all around her. the moon shed the light, she had always needed, in

One day, we were all alone. just us and the sky, and the waves and the sun. that day was like a dream, as it was good enough to be. i loved you just then, and i knew you felt the same. You made me your angel, the one you always came to. There was a silent promise, of never-ending love... tell me please, what happened to that day? What happened to the look, that was so strong in our eyes? Tell me if it\'s really over, so i can start again, and maybe make you mine, again just like that day. Make you fall, as hard as ever. And change everything, back to normal one more time.

Alone again. writing to remind you, that i exist. used to be in your life, in your heart, and in your mind. now i\'m just another, lost love in the long line. No more life to live, the fun and games, were gone long ago. Should\'ve seen this end to \"us\" coming. But i was blind, w/ your love and happiness. Didn\'t see i was hurting you, when i needed time to myself. You didn\'t tell me how you really felt. I was left in the dark, still don\'t know, just what happened. Ask you for answers, you don\'t know either. Heartbreak songs, running through my head, fast as they can, crashing into the dreams, of love and l

The held-back feeling, has chased me down again. Wanting something more, but it all feels the same. I love you yet still, you don\'t know who i am. I stand alone still, in this insignificant life of mine. i\'d love to walk w/ you, but i watch you pass me by. If only i could find the courage, i would no longer have to lie.

so many souls, contemplating death mind and heart, don\'t work anymore. Just the body there, going through the motions, walk past life, w/out caring at all. Look at me, don\'t i seem happy? I gave up long ago, i think i sold my soul... so many emotions, show through the masks. In the end it doesn\'t matter, but once you\'ve followed me, there\'s really no turning back. Start believing your own lies, and hate yourself for it. You knew it all along, but now it\'s too much. Now you realize how bad it is, what you did wrong, and that no one else cares.

shut the fuck up bitch! i\'m sick of your yelling, your screaming, your fuckin\' complaning! you say you hate my dad, you wish that he was fuckin\' dead. well, do you expect me to turn on him too?? you do this all the time, i\'m sick of your shit. you\'re so bored, then DO something about it! i\'m the one stuck here, w/out a life, friends, and worst of all, w/out a car!! get yourself out, that\'s what I\'D do. this morning was fine. i woke up happy. as the hours go on, you keep talking and talking... drives me crazy! you\'re driving me fuckin\' mad!! you don\'t see that it\'s you, that gets me this way, so you ask if

What am i to you? Just another heart to break, just another love to fake. Just some other words to say, all to get me to agree. So i ask myself, not to fall, but my heart begins to melt, and i give you my all. please tell me...what am i to you? you say that you love me, that you\'ll always be there. i\'m the prettiest thing, and you can\'t help but stare. But really...what am i to you? I\'d love to say, that i believe, that everything will be okay, and that you\'ll never leave. But i still don\'t know...what am i to you? Just another heart to break, just another love to fake. Just some other words to say, all to get m

waiting alone for someone to care, waiting alone for someone to be here, waiting alone for someone to realize that i\'m, waiting alone. I could stay here, surround myself w/ my own darkest memories, my own worst enemies. watch the things i love, melt into worthless, fucked up little problems. pile them together, one by one, until i break once again. Wake up for my friends every morning. someone has to help them through, drag them away from the edges, of their personal, problematic lives. there\'s a sense of true accomplishment, but by the end of my day, where do i go? Who can i turn to when, i\'m the one that wants to di